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Let's get things straight. I stop caring because you didn't care at all in the first place. All the excuses you can find just to meet me. When you meet your friends you are super enthusiastic. I wonder why.. If I did not care why would i build back the house even when my arm is injured. And I can't even go out and have supper? You're also going out today to celebrate your friend's birthday. So you can enjoy while I'm not supposed to? And your recent screenshot. You blanked out something. Trying to hide something? Talking to ANOTHER guy?
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AND YOU SAID I DON'T CARE.. AFTER WHAT YOU DID TODAY.. I'M NOT GOING TO..
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How can someone lie so much? Don't they feel guilty? Don't they care for the victim? Just the night before, you were pleading me to believe you. I did, and you betrayed my trust, time after time. How do you want me to react? Shrug it off with a smile on my face? How many times have you lied to me? How many times will you lie to me? How many things are kept behind my back right now? You said sorry in an sms. I saw it only when I reached home and on my phone. And then you started acted like it's all my fault and you don't give a damn anymore. Do you think that will make me feel better? After feeling like shit from the whole incident. You said i was like the old you. I think you forgot how the old you was like. Go think about it. You said you feel emotionally unstable. What about me? I get hard blows to my heart time after time. Let's talk about the recent ONES. Your ex boyfriend's gifts. You said the gifts don't mean much to you. But you are willing to quarrel with me over them. So I mean much lesser to you than the gifts? It's okay. I let you keep. Soon after, there's this bernard thing. Wow. All the deceit from one small msn conversation. You said you don't mean anything. "Tell him so much for what". If I'm not interested in a stranger, I would have said no the moment she asked me out. And furthermore, I won't say I may not wait for my boyfriend if he goes to the NS. Those are the questions I asked you when you were with Ying Kai. You gave almost the same reply. And then I knew I had a chance. You said your friends trust you won't do such a thing. But do they know you as much as I know you? I had to swallow all of these by myself. Who should be emotionally unstable now? And then the lies. How long more do you think a human can take all of this? I'm a human, I have feelings too. Are you testing my limits? Just ask yourself. Do you TRULY LOVE me?
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hello blog.. sorry i havent posted for awhile.. been busy and lazy its the holidays now but im feeling so bored i somehow feel lonely.. also, i have these reoccuring nightmares that are driving me insane im losing my sleep and my mood now i feel damn depressed.. and angry from my nightmares sometimes i wake up with the urge to kill someone. i hope these nightmares wont come true im going to korea from 21st to 26th sept its been awhile since i went overseas hope it will be fun
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konichiwa blog! ._. i recovered from my sickness! kind of fast compared to my previous one which took few months!! now left bit cough! should be gone soon.. I HOPE. the project stuff is going quite ok.. managed to submit 2 on time.. left with somemore.. i lost count! anyway hope nth goes wrong.. if i was the president.. i will change the whole education system.. it's really screwed up.. i forgot why.. but i know it's screwed up! i will explain why when i remember! :D i got this huge undying cravings recently. beef, strawberries, sushi and bbq chicken wings! i think im pregnant! DAMN oh well..
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HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII im recovering from my sickness! WEE.. im left with cough now.. my backbone is hurting recently.. dont know why ._. am i getting old?? everytime i cough it will hurt!! what's happening! AM I DYING?? ): my PERIOD has come again.. the PERIOD where im stuffed with projects! i have like SOOOOOOOOOO many projects.. but im lazy to start! ahhhh... save me someone! i have been thinking bout my future.. i still do not know where im heading.. so SCARY.. ): i hope my brain can sort this out real soon! before i go to NS and become reaaaaaaaaaal stupid! ._. ohhhhhhhhh welllllllllllllllllll wish me luck for my life and projects! *hugs blog*
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Wednesday 15/7/09 i woke up thinking it would be a nice wednesday.. everything will be alright.. the sun will smile at me and butterflies will pick strawberries and feed me.. BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.... i woke up.. it was raining heavily.. I CANT FEEL MY THROAT i was SHIVERING.. i crawled to the switch thingy to off the fan and crawled back to bed. STILL SHIVERING.. AM I DYING? crawled out of my room to find my mother.. she touched my forehead and said i have a fever.. and then she gave me a LECTURE ): about the importance of sleeping early and im sick because i slp late they drop me at the POLY cleenic. i crawled to the entrance they say i have a fever and give me a terrorist mask.. i had to sit at the waiting area ALONE under a HUGE FAN i was shivering like mad.. like i got possessed or something.. booooooo see the doc, took my med and crawled home. when i reach home i lie on my bed and shiver to sleep! (: THURSDAY the day after wednesday! i woke up thinking i should be cured since i took my medicine and had plenty of rest maybe today the butterflies will feed me strawberries.. BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I CANT FEEL MY THROAT AGAIN!! stupid medicine aint working!!!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! so i was like crawling around the house finding my family but they're not home! ): took milo and medicine and went back to sleep.. i felt better in the afternoon.. but still very weak! almost fainted when i was climbing up the stairs.. nobody was home so if i had really fainted.......... THE END of me so now, im slowly recovering.. hopefully i will be fully recovered by monday.. i only went to school once this week.. *shakes head* oh well.. im off to shiver somemore! BYE ._.
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